Who am I kidding? At best, I am a failed model minority, seemingly subverting the status quo while using the very structures of power I seek to dismantle. At worst, I am a tool of the White Savior Industrial Complex—a system wearing Blackface with rainbow hair and a forced smile. This duality captures the tension between complicity and resistance in navigating spaces built on systemic inequalities, where efforts toward justice are easily absorbed into the machinery of capitalist institutions. I can burn myself out making background noise or play the same role with a cool title—choose your preferred delusion.