“I would prefer not to”—on rejecting and “fending off” absence
摘要
“I would prefer not to” is an enigmatic phrase by Herman Melville that epitomizes what I would like to explore, namely, the fate of the dissociated spontaneous gesture of rejecting and “fending off” early traumatic absence, and its clinical implications. I will attempt to consider the paradoxical impossibility of “fending off” absence, of rejecting what hasn’t occurred yet was expected and needed by the emerging self. Ferenczi’s (